Moving On

It's over. It's done. And I mean really, truly done. I've finished my novel. Really, truly finished it. It's printed out and everything, and there's someone reading it right now. My best friend has a huge piece of my heart between her hands. Those 207 pages, those 117 111 words mean more to me than she'll ever know; more than anyone will ever know.

I don't think I've ever felt a such a sense of accomplishment like the one I felt when I finally printed out that last page. When I finally finished editing that last page. When I finally wrote down that last sentence; that last word. It's a feeling that I never want to forget, because I think that it'll be my driving force. Not just for writing, but for everything. When I feel like I want to give up (because let's face it I give up very easily) maybe now I'll try a little harder because I'll remember what it feels like to accomplish something that I've put so, so much effort into.

Since life seems to love keeping me busy, I had just settled down from my NaNoWriMo experience, when I got swept up into yet another contest, Poetry in Voice. And I think that this has plenty more new things to teach me. Maybe if I win, I'll gain a little more confidence. Maybe if I lose, I'll learn to accept things easier. But I really want to win this. I don't think I've wanted to win anything more than I want to win this. Just to be able to say that I've amounted to something in my high school years. That I've done something worthy of being noted. So now instead of writing, I'm focusing on being the voice of what others have written. When I read these poems, I can make them my own. I can put anger where others normally wouldn't have seen anger, or hope where others would've seen sorrow. I get to be the voice of someone's passion, I get to keep their words alive. As a writer, there'd be nothing in the world more rewarding than having someone bringing what I wrote to life hundreds of years later. If anything, this is gonna change how much I appreciate not only my writing, but others' writing as well. And I'm so excited to see what's gonna come of all of this.