Wow. 2 months and a day. That't crazy. It's been way, way, way too long. Life's just been so crazy, and sometimes that's not really a good thing. With friends, school, my horse, work and homework it's just hard to sit back and find time for myself. To do some things that I wanna do, things that I enjoy. But tonight that's changing. Things are truly crazy and it feels so good to just be able to sit back and write about it; the only way I can truly get everything out in the open. I'm not gonna sit here and talk about everything that happened. I could write that in two sentences since, nothing's really happened. My life is lame. Instead I'm gonna sit here and talk about things that have changed, cause personally, I think that it's important to think about the past cause really, it's what brought you to the present. If you think about it.
School's pretty weird, in the sense of walking around and hearing my friends point to some random kids and call them niners. I don't say it out loud. I say it in my head though; I'll totally admit to that. I just feel kinda bad for them cause I was there last year, I know what it's like. Plus I spent about 90% of my ninth grade year being depressed. Shit was going down and the last thing I wanted to deal with was school. So depressed or not, I know how hard it is to start high school, and in the end, it's still important to respect them cause they're people too, niners or not.
So I'm sure that you don't wanna sit there and hear me talk about school. or work or anything like that. So I'll get to the "interesting stuff."
I think I've finally found myself. I feel more connected to me and who I am. And I think that's an important thing, especially if I want to survive in today's society. I think that dabbling in the religion/science/art of Wicca has really helped. People frown upon Wicca and witchcraft. They shouldn't. If it's done right and used for the right purposes, it's really all about being connected to nature (I know that sounds lame but w.e.) and to yourself. You don't gain the power, it's already in and around you, you just have to find it. And a lot of people haven't. That's why there's so many people who don't truly understand what the spells and all that is about. It's all about making yourself be the best that you can be, the spells are kinda like a bra, they support you along the way.
And last, but not least. There's this guy that I kinda, sorta, might like just a little....but I can't. For a few reasons. He's older than me, which is never good. Him and my best friend are connected, so I can't really talk about him cause if I say too much, the friend in question will know that it's her. She won't do anything about it, I know. She already thinks it would be cool if this guy and I went out, but I dunno, I think it would just be weird. And he will never notice me. I think that that last part should be every teenage girl's catch phrase, cause it's so true. Or so you think until he finally asks you out. But see that will never happen to me because no matter how much I might, and I repeat might cause I'm really trying not to fall for him, dream of him ever asking me out. It simply won't happen. And I'm trying so, so, so hard to remind myself that guys are complete idiots, I can't help but wonder if he might be different. Which deep down, I know he's not, cause guys are all the same. I guess I'm still waiting for one of them to at least try to prove me wrong.
School's pretty weird, in the sense of walking around and hearing my friends point to some random kids and call them niners. I don't say it out loud. I say it in my head though; I'll totally admit to that. I just feel kinda bad for them cause I was there last year, I know what it's like. Plus I spent about 90% of my ninth grade year being depressed. Shit was going down and the last thing I wanted to deal with was school. So depressed or not, I know how hard it is to start high school, and in the end, it's still important to respect them cause they're people too, niners or not.
So I'm sure that you don't wanna sit there and hear me talk about school. or work or anything like that. So I'll get to the "interesting stuff."
I think I've finally found myself. I feel more connected to me and who I am. And I think that's an important thing, especially if I want to survive in today's society. I think that dabbling in the religion/science/art of Wicca has really helped. People frown upon Wicca and witchcraft. They shouldn't. If it's done right and used for the right purposes, it's really all about being connected to nature (I know that sounds lame but w.e.) and to yourself. You don't gain the power, it's already in and around you, you just have to find it. And a lot of people haven't. That's why there's so many people who don't truly understand what the spells and all that is about. It's all about making yourself be the best that you can be, the spells are kinda like a bra, they support you along the way.
And last, but not least. There's this guy that I kinda, sorta, might like just a little....but I can't. For a few reasons. He's older than me, which is never good. Him and my best friend are connected, so I can't really talk about him cause if I say too much, the friend in question will know that it's her. She won't do anything about it, I know. She already thinks it would be cool if this guy and I went out, but I dunno, I think it would just be weird. And he will never notice me. I think that that last part should be every teenage girl's catch phrase, cause it's so true. Or so you think until he finally asks you out. But see that will never happen to me because no matter how much I might, and I repeat might cause I'm really trying not to fall for him, dream of him ever asking me out. It simply won't happen. And I'm trying so, so, so hard to remind myself that guys are complete idiots, I can't help but wonder if he might be different. Which deep down, I know he's not, cause guys are all the same. I guess I'm still waiting for one of them to at least try to prove me wrong.
